LEAP

AND
THE
NET
APPEARS

october thus far includes:

-my favorite gloomy weather

-every material thing i could ever hope for

-shooting film, which makes me giddy

-sweaters

-my first piece of writing published

-a sense of beginnings

''people never notice anything''

-catcher in the rye

your rocky spine

i was lost in the lakes
and the shape that your body makes
that your body makes

and the mountains said i could find you here
they whisper the snow and the leaves in my ear
i traced my fingers along your trails
your body was the map
i was lost in there

floating over your rocky spine
the glaciers made you and now you're mine

i was moving across your frozen veneer
the sky was dark
but you were clear
could you feel my footsteps?
and would you shatter, would you shatter?
would you?

your soft fingers between my claws
like purity against resolve
i could tell then that we were formed from the clay
and came from the rocks for earth to display

they told me to be careful up there
where the wind rages through your hair

-great lake swimmers

there is only one way to go

fact:
i am the queen of whiplash mind changes.
another fact:
underneath all of my indecisions are stubborn values
the most important of which is to live
BOUNDLESSLY.

so,
we talked with clear minds and clear lungs
and came to this,

i do not own him
he does not own me
we are free
and we love each other for free
there are no ties
no gimmicks
we choose each other
not out of obligation
not out of expectation
unconditionally

you can't lose something if you never held it tight

i do not have a boyfriend
i have a person who loves me no matter what
who wants for me what i want for me
and is not an anchor

thank you for everything

p.s.

what would i do without late night bunny skypes anyway?

i think i might secretly be laura marling

or at least her soul sister

don't hold yourself like that
you'll hurt your knees
i kissed your mouth and back
that's all i need
don't build your world around
volcanoes melt you down

and what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i'll ask for the sea

don't throw yourself like that
in front of me
you kissed my mouth, your back
is that all you need?
don't drag my love around
volcanoes melt me down

what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i'll ask

for what i give to you is just what i'm going through
this nothing new, no no, just another phase of finding
what i really need
is what makes me bleed
but like a new disease, she's still too young to treat
volcanoes melt you down
she's still too young
she's still too young
what i am to you
you do not need
is not real

i kissed your mouth
you do not need me