4/27

sunshine is fine

some guy in a bakery gave me advice:

WRITE! everyday
READ! the good, and especially the bad
SCHOOL CAN'T TEACH YOU ANYTHING! except boring, technical things


thought i'd pass that along. even to you non-writers. here is a little recap of my beautiful life lately:

-go to work! where i eat cookies and do all the dirty work
-go to internship! where i do all the dirty work and learn about hip hop
-go to Adam's house! where we do not sleep and laugh/jam/feast on fruit/walk Biscuit/watch VCR's/lay together and absorb it all
-occasionally visit my house

i am thriving. damn, it's good to be a gangster.

doubtless

i keep
         falling
                    more in love with you.
                                                     not
                                                      a
                                                     downward
                                                      tumble, more like

                                                                                        falling up.

a place where it seems we can get no higher,
and then
                                                                                        we do.

4/17

 

SUNDAY

open your damn ears and give this a listen

my first piece of satire (which is pretty funny if i do say so myself)

A Utah Teacher's Guide To Sexual Education

1. SEX IS BAD- As far as your students should be concerned, the only things that come from sex are babies and diseases.
2. SEX IS SCARY- And questions about sex are scarier. If a student asks anything, refer them to their parents immediately.
3. CONDOMS PREVENT MINIVANS- But this is Utah, and we love our minivans. Mentioning this and any other form of contraceptive may result in termination of your career.
4. SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE DOES NOT EXIST- It is your job to blur religious beliefs into scientific fact as quietly and effectively as possible.
5. IGNORANCE IS BLISS- Hard facts and/or information about sex, STD's and pregnancy will only overwhelm your students. It is best to provide them with adequate blinders to anything except abstinence.
6. SEX IS NOT NATURAL!- Teenagers may be running rampant with hormones, but sexual urges are the highest form of evil and must be suppressed immediately. No sex is the best sex.
7. WORST CASE SCENARIO- If a student tells you they have had sex and ask for advice, they are lying. See #4.

i am really fucking happy. i can't wipe this shit-full-of-glee-grin off of my face. and folks, i wish the same for you.

4/14 [ Adam]

I SAW YOU SHINING BRIGHTER

 

hahahaha

so awesome.

sex education at its finest.

surreality

hi,

my life is perfect.

and so is yours,

even if you don't realize it yet.

stretch, scream, absorb. take it all in unflinchingly. stop wandering the endless corridors of your mind and start listening to your soul. it is full of colors.

we have filled our lives with things,

we have surrounded ourselves with boxes,

we have turned life into a mediocrity.

the refusal to accept this will turn everything on its axis.

intrinsically, we are love. you are love. i am love.

your love is butter for burns

when Hotel Yorba played and we danced on your bed in the dark 

when we went to the swings at midnight and laughed and laughed

when we walked through the snow and you wrapped me in your coat so i wouldn't be cold

when we sat on my roof and marveled at how close we have been all this time and never known; 

6 billion hearts on this earth

and here we are, together.

i feel so infinite i'm weak in the knees.

Adam

unblinking, sudden, complete
i can never look back.
how will i ever let you out of my arms? i will do so knowing that you will follow wherever i wander, that  you have the golden patience and loyalty of a lion,
that distance has no way of making love understandable.
i saw it in your eyes; drowned in it
i always knew this existed in theory
and the reality of it is
boundless,
ecstatic,
beyond this world.
you are the one who lingers
the one who sets explosions of colors through my veins and has the same breath
the one i felt in my legs all these years
the one who makes me fearless and free
i have never been so certain
i have never been so at ease
you are the yellow bird i have been waiting for

i love you through infinity.

4/1

-bulleted lists are one of my favorite things to write

-when i ride through the city on my bike, i feel like i'm breathing unbreathed air, and like it's all in a new sort of vein

-red lipstick is something males shall never understand, and perhaps that is part of the appeal

-working at a bakery is the stuff of dreams. yum. 

- i ran into people today randomly, who i think about often. which is cool. very cool

-i believe that every person should read Eating Animals by Jonathan Safran Foer.

-being blown off sucks

-playing stupid games with people sucks

-an unexpected phone call from a voice you want to hear much more often makes the night seem big. and when you realize the voice called just to talk, just to hear your voice too...well, it's good news. i love the quirks of the universe

p.s. can't get enough of this song. 

DON'T HAUNT ME

i've been told to give up the ghost

into your arms

into your arms