falling in love

shamelessly
all over the place
with everyone.

lightheaded on americano's, nicotine and conversation that takes me away

resolutions! last year vs. this year

2011:

-fight for something

-connect impulse to action

-scream

-allow free expression

-surprise myself

-make ugly art

-release tension

-finish things

-stretch perspective

-be good to body

-meditate

-get close

-eliminate hesitation

-embrace BOLD

2012:

-get out of my head

-ask the hard questions

-continue to choose freedom

-do not lessen my capability to love in order to accommodate my capability to fear

-manifest

-rise to myself

-take a photo every day

-stop preempting

-seek those who seek growth

-go crazy

-act forward

LA LUNA

it's a marvelous night for a moon dance
go soak up some magic

attention!

that is the last time a dick move will be pulled on me. i am on high alert.

uff

not really ringing in the new year in the best of ways.

felt shitty and dyed my hair red to make a statement.

tell me now,
where was my fault
in loving you with my whole heart?

sometimes

you hit a deer on your way home from Christmas,
right after you smash your iPod

and then you're back to square one:

reliant on public transportation
with a walkman in hand.


fuck!

i hate the helpless feeling of not being able to pick up and drive somewhere.
prior to yesterday my release from work stress was to
drive somewhere new
park
play something loud
and take up my fractional space in the universe.

no more of that for a while.

fuck.

cold desire

let me curl up next to your fireplace heart.

you make it so hard.