3/30

I AM A PRIZE AMONG WOMEN

NOBODY FAILED ME.

the week of speaking
the week of naked existence


it is time to speak honestly. and by honestly i mean completely unfiltered. 


why hide from each other? try it.

a lil story bout 3/26

HOLI FESTIVAL

with Tyannah and Julia. where for the most part, people made asses of themselves and confirmed my feelings that far too many people in Utah (specifically Utah County) are ignorant/arrogant fools. the holiday signifies a shedding of past evils and an awakened sense of both individual and group consciousness. but alas, there were many a folk who impatiently interrupted the rituals chanting for the color throwing to begin.

it was still a good time,

especially when Ty and I went without shirts and felt 

free.

POST-HOLI

my bra looked like this

and my baftub looked like this.

then,

A MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT (stoner) ADVENTURE!

with my uncle Andy, Kerriann, my brother, and Oliver the dog. we hiked 2.5 miles each way in the icy muddy madness, ill equipped of course. but it was worth it, for our destination was the Diamond Fork  hot springs. and hot they were.

i lied across two rocks and looked up at the infinite sky and cried one tear and felt 

rejuvinated.

NOT A DAY TO FORGET.

a true story that almost worked out and then he had a girlfriend

be as brave as you are bold
                                              he says,

i didn't mean to
                                             drag
                                             you
                                             through the mud.

and i wish i could have come bearing hugs.
                                                                          i say,


                                              the universe is always benevolent
                                              so i shall put another notch in my belt
                                              take another step

                                              find another heart that feels something real.

It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. And this bag was, like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in. 


-American Beauty

3/22

IRONY 

OLIVER

NICOTINE

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it's a chain smoking sort of night.


something to press against my lips
that won't stand me up
or tell me i'm second best