6 months

lightening

can't sleep because i'm busy hoping this fog of worry in my head doesn't formulate into something tangible
i think any step i take in any direction is the first of a brave adventure
i have nothing to fear but tend to forget that
it is 4:13 in the morning
i am seeking a person who can tell me things i already know but am struggling to see,
an enlightened perspective
only people i care about ever read these ramblings which makes me feel like 'tis okay to ramble
[ :) ]
i hope by this time tomorrow, i will be able to rake my restless thoughts into one pile
and breathe deeply.

bonne nuit, mon amies

P.S.

i hugged Conor Oberst, my favorite musician. nbd.

if i could i would keep this feeling in a plastic jar

things of note:

-irish skin + sun are not the best of friends
-i say this a lot, but i love my bike
-Craft Lake City was awesome, put on by awesome people, full of awesome art and music
-i love Indiana Jones'in my way onto Trax
-one of my best buddies is heading out on his mission, very much against his will. as  much as that sucks, i know he will spread love/laughs/smiles wherever he goes. i am sending him off with Siddhartha (which everyone in a life crisis should read) and a sketchbook. best on your adventures Cam
-i also say this a lot, but i am so lucky to have Adam in my life
- short term art related goals include: get my photography hung up somewhere, write an article for SLUG, get paid for a photoshoot, continue painting
-i love my deck of tarot cards
-it truly is fun to play matchmaker
-my Walkman has served me well, but i think it is finally time to replace my stolen ipod. aw

I ALWAYS FALL IN LOVE WITH AN OPEN DOOR

you can't watch this

and tell me Mormon's are living in the honor of Jesus Christ

you can't analyze this

http://www.npr.org/2011/08/05/138995325/rick-perrys-religious-revival-sparks-a-holy-war

and tell me that we live in a country where separation of church and state is upheld

you can't read these words

http://www.focusonthefamily.com/socialissues/sexual-identity/progay-revisionist-theology/our-position.aspx

and tell me Christians aren't breeding bigotry and hate towards their own brothers and sisters

leaving some gays no option 

but to die trying to 'fix' their gay feelings

by committing suicide

justifying the most sickening rape of human rights

with a concept of a petulant God

 that only loves some people

i do not believe in hate

i do not believe i am superior to those who hate

i believe that attempting to separate humanity from humanity is futile

and the cause of much guilt and grief

i believe that intrinsically, we are one and the same

that there is nothing on any level that makes one person unequal from another

unless we choose to see it that way

i believe that the fear-based system the majority of the world is precariously teetering on

is about to collapse

and that love leads the way

to new beginnings

to enlightenment

to an age where universal joy, truth and freedom exists

i cannot stop and will not stop ranting about things i find important
i believe complacency will be the death of my generation
if someone reads my thoughts and ponders them
that is beautiful
if no one reads my thoughts
that is beautiful

good night to all with love from a fire-veined journalist who stays up all night watching documentaries
xxoo

to my best friend:

sending you brave thoughts
be safe
you are a vital person to a changing world
what are the chances of it being your street?
neither of us believe in coincidences
i love you

http://www.guardian.co.uk/uk/2011/aug/09/liverpool-riots-toxteth-residents-describe-chaos

8/7

we almost made it
turned a corner and they bit his neck
he wanted me to go on,
i refused to leave him
we went down
but at least we went down together

p.s. this is the cheesiest bestest bloodiest thing ever